In January, I had another Dr appointment. My Dr. had asked me if I had more questions before she was finished. All I remember saying was: "I have this funny feeling that I am pregnant, but there is NO way this could be..."knowing that I was protecting myself from this happening again...
A month after my last visit, my sister Lisa and I had just arrived to my parents house and Lisa told me that she had bought a pregnancy test for me to take. I was like no, but I snuck into the bathroom to take it anyway. When I came out I was crying so hard, not tears of joy but tears of fear. What was I going to tell Jason or what is my Dr. going to say...
As I was driving home, I started praying "Lord PLEASE help me and give me the words to tell Jason." I was completely terrified. I didn't think it was FAIR to my son, my husband and myself that we were going to bring another baby into our lives. We were still newlyweds and my son was an infant...my body still hurt from having my son.
Well, I got home and I looked horrible and Jason had asked what was wrong. I had told him that we were going to have another baby. He was just as terrified as I was. He was the strong one and said that every was going to be okay...
Seven months into my pregnancy, the Dr. was finally able to FIND the sex of our second baby..."It's a GIRL" the Dr. said. I sat on the table and just cried. I was so selfish and kept telling the Dr. that I didn't want a girl... I know I should have been happy that it was not only a girl but a baby... but I wasn't.
God just started showing me that I should be blessed to have not only one baby but two... no matter if it was a boy or girl. I should be happy that I was able to even HAVE another baby. As I began to pray and read my Bible, God gave me a LOVE for my daughter...same kind you have when you first fall in love...I held on to every moment we shared together before she was born.
October 2, 2008 our daughter came into this world....Victoria Grace. She is so perfect. So little, but so mighty. So soft, but so loud. So fiesty, but can brighten up anyones day with her charm. So stubborn, but so full of LOVE!!!
One year later, I have never stop holding, hugging, kissing and praying for her. She is so perfect. God really showed me and still is showing how to love Tori and be the best mommy I can for her. I am so proud to be Victoria's mommy and I wouldn't change one thing...
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I wouldn't change one thing either. I remember I kept having dreams that you were going to have a girl. I just knew it!!! When I got your text saying "It's a Girl" all i sent back was "I know".
I am so lucky to be her Aunt. I love her so much and love seeing her grow and mature much differently than her brother. She's got the sweetest personality and is such a little charmer. I would keep her if you'd let me...and I think she might be okay with that. lol
You always said you wanted 6 kids so here they come, pretty quickly.
Remember, "God will not give you more than you can bear." 1 Corinthians 10:13. With that being said, continue to see the blessings in everything He has given you, everything He has put you in charge of to care for. Look at every moment in life as a gift from God. No one could be a better wife or mother to your family, no one could tend to them the way you do and God knows what an exceptional wife and mother you are becoming through the challenges you have been presented with.
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